This is my life. Last Friday I waited for him to call so that we can go out and talk and hopefully figure out some things. But yet again the addiction won. I was again devastated and I don’t know why? I should have been used to this already and no matter how much it happens and/or how many times he does this, I am always taken back and somewhat surprised. I was so angry that I begin to think of ways I can get some of this pain off of my heart.
Then I realized that he may be a trigger for me and decided that I needed to go to a meeting to remind me of the very essence of my own Sobriety. This is so dis-heartening. I tried and I am tired and now decided that I am worth better. I am worth being swoop off my feet with someone who want to love me and not cheat on me with drugs and alcohol. I will miss him yes, but I am free from all the drama that come with the usage. I am calm in the midst of the storms that are raging within. Thank you for my Higher Power!!!!